Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Our story

My story begins back in 2007 when I suspected that I was pregnant. My husband and I had been married the following year and weren't actively preventing a pregnancy nor actually trying yet. I took a pregnancy test and was shocked that I felt such disappointment in the negative results of that test. We weren't even trying yet and I was surprised by the tears that fell when I saw that one lonely line on the test indicating that I was not expecting. These would be the first of the many tears that would be shed throughout the journey....

I always knew I wanted to have children, there was never any doubt about that. I am the oldest of the five children in my family and have sort of "mothered" them all - often against their will:) I started babysitting at a very young age and found that working with children was my calling.

After high school, I went to college for teaching and am now a middle school teacher, a coach, and I still babysit on the weekends. I feel fulfilled and happiest when I am surrounded by little ones and know that this is my purpose in life.

I met my husband and knew right away that he was the one for me. The main trait that attracted me to him besides his beautiful smile, was his love for children. He had a little nephew (at the time only 14 months) and was absolutely in love with that little guy! He will make an amazing father one day - he is playful, fun, loving, supportive, caring, etc.

Once we got that negative pregnancy test in April of 2007, we sort of decided that it wouldn't be a bad time to start trying for a baby of our own. We were so excited to make that decision and were filled with joy at the prospect of becomming parents.

See, the problem is that no one ever prepares themselves for infertility. No one starts off trying to have a baby thinking that they will eventually go through all that we have been through. No one prepares themselves for the countless months of disappointment that we have been through. No one could ever imagine the heartache that infertility causes and how it has the ability to change you, shape you, break you - unless you are determined to rise above it and conquer it!

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