I am sorry that I haven't been able to update with good news yet. We are still waiting...and waiting...and waiting!
We were chosen to meet with two different birthmoms so far which is great. Our homestudy was officially transferred and finalized on September 14th - so 2 different possibilities in just over a month is amazing and hopeful.
The first birthmom narrowed down the profiles to 2 different adoptive couples to choose from. She decided on the other couple. I was an absolute nervous wreck before meeting with her. It felt like the scariest job interview ever because it was an interview to adopt a baby! WHOA! I learned a few things from that interview. First, it was not scary! She was very nice and sweet and the meeting actually went extremely well! It took her a week longer than she had expected to make the final decision because she couldn't decide between the two different couples - she liked both of us. Second, I never realized that the birthmoms are nervous too! Third, I learned that I can just relax and not have to worry when meeting a birthmom.
The second mom was amazing! Ed and I really like her a lot! She is undecided as to whether or not she wants to give her baby up for adoption at this point, so we are waiting for her to make that final decision. Hopefully we will know more information soon!
Please keep praying for us and keep sending us your positive thoughts - the adoption process is very different than I thought it would be! I never realized that there would be so many "in between" moments. I was prepared to wait for the call...but not prepared to be in constant limbo. I never thought that I would get a call saying that we have been chosen IF the mom decides to give the baby up for adoption - I don't know how to prepare for that emotionally - it is extremely stressful and hard! It is hard to even talk about it or honestly even write about it because it is such a big "IF". I also never realized how anxiously I would "stalk" my phone waiting for it to ring haha! I am so excited to hear updates and carry my phone with me everywhere to make sure that I don't miss anything important!
I know that each day of waiting is one less day of waiting and one day closer to meeting that precious child. I also know (or at least try to tell myself) that we WILL be parents one day and that each day is one step closer to that magical and miraculous moment. There are definitely many discouraging moments and moments of feeling defeated - but all of that will melt away once we hold our child one day.
